In the hustle and bustle of everyday life, most of us long for a day (or so) to just do nothing. No meetings, no calls, nowhere to be, no one needing us right now.
Being in the hospital for 3 weeks can change the perception of that. It's hard to do nothing. Even on vacation, we usually plan some activities to fill the days.
But the real kicker is that the body can get used to doing nothing and want to keep it that way. For the past week, I have been unable to stand or walk for more than a minute or so. I am utterly exhausted at the slightest exertion.
Is it the low blood counts trying to recover from chemotherapy? The aftereffect of neutropenic fevers and double pneumonia? Or a loss of muscle mass from lying in bed?
The nurses just say it is to be expected, but that doesn't make it easier. Oddly enough, I want to be able to do my laundry or make a meal.
Someday, when all this is over (i.e. when my bone marrow has recovered from transplant) remind me of that.
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Saw my neighbor yesterday who had a BMT for AML 3 years ago. He is now helping his son on his ranch and goes 6 months between doctors appointments!
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